Subtle

In a world so full of noise and illusion, we would do best to navigate by the stars of things we cannot see rather than relying on what seems to unfold before us on the material plane.  The linear is necessarily limited – constrained by duality and thus rigid and unwieldy.  In that space, we can do battle with our own demons reflected back at us all of our days.  Reactions that are almost always marked by the pain we have experienced, the shame we carry and the loss we fear.  It is not a reliable compass by which to navigate one’s life.  But the material world privileges the seemingly solid reality we take in with our senses and upon running it through the filter of our past experiences it renders a verdict – most often a judgment.  This situation is dangerous.  That person is decent.  The logical choice is x.  But living from such a literal place is necessarily limited.  It negates the value of what we cannot see and discounts the truth that we feel. 

Beyond logic and reason there are things we know. 

If we can learn to tune into that subtle feedback then our world can open up as if by magic.  We know so much more than we know.  Science has proven that the volume of information our subconscious mind takes in eclipses what our conscious brain can feasibly process by order upon order of magnitude.  To cope it runs this data through the filter of our past experiences and our beliefs about ourselves and the world – the ultimate self-selection bias if you will.  Because the mind will bring forward what it believes you want to glean from the river of information seen and unseen that constantly courses through you.  It is then true that our beliefs about reality shape our reality because they guide what we see and what we believe it means.  The ego and the intellect are both churning constantly for something rigid they can root into and control.  But the truth at the most basic level is that none of what we experience as firm or solid – including ourselves and everyone we know and everything that we see – actually is. 

We are all matter in motion. 

Particles vibrate in such a way that we perceive them as fixed matter.

Yet we — and all we have ever known or seen — is primarily composed of empty space. 

Space and energy. 

And once you really understand what that means on a quantum level you begin to see that nothing is in fact what it seems and an alternate means of navigating life is required.  The wisdom of the body and the innate inborn intensity of the intuition are far more reliable guides than the cacophony of voices and opinions and noise above the neck.  To learn to connect with the knowing in your bones and more directly with the energy of the people around you and the things you experience is revolutionary. 

Our entire culture is built on discounting the subtle and honoring the primacy of what we can see. 

This removes us from ourselves and from our bodies and leaves us more open to manipulation by way of the mind.  Once you learn to listen to it — to view it as your ally and your greatest teacher – the only friend you will ever have with you every moment until you die – you realize that your body will always, always tell you the truth.  Even when you do not want to hear it.  It knows and it will tell you. If you discount your intuition and the knowing voice it brings to your mind it will resort to discomfort and then finally disease in an attempt to get your attention.  In my own life, it took getting very sick to begin to understand how to listen because I had no other choice.  And as I have begun to trust myself and my inner knowing and my body’s innate wisdom I have slowly grown stronger.  No doubt because my body finally trusts that I am listening to her and no longer needs me to be doubled over in pain to get my attention. 

As a very historically cerebral person, it took me a long time and a lot of reading into the science underpinning the subtle to realize that it is discounted not because it is not salient, but because it gives us back to ourselves and makes us very powerful.  When you are connected to your inner resources in a meaningful way you are self-sourced.  You do not need the feedback or opinions of others to make your way or validate your choices.  You can clear their voices out of your head until your own truth, your own intuition and your connection to the broader whole are so powerful that you can navigate in the dark. 

Even if your senses fall away you can still know what you know. 

But there are still moments when we freeze and find ourselves at a standstill.  If the primal brain — wired for fear and always preparing for danger — rises up then our ability to access the higher centers of our brain drops away and we are no longer rooted in our bodies.  We react.  We do not think. We do not feel.  So the challenge is how to learn the pathways that exist in your biology that lead you again and again back to a thinking place and then to the calm beyond that where the path ahead is clear at the level of vibration and intuition rather than fact and intellect.  I find that I still freeze and that my mind goes completely blank sometimes, but these days I understand why and can hold more grace for myself as I acknowledge that my deep old primal brain reacted in the moment leaving me without access to my brain or my body.  That is why it is so important to cultivate roots for yourself as best you can.  To ground into your inner knowing.

To again and again return to a peaceful place where you can feel your truth. 

Meditation helps.  Exercise helps.  Breathing deep down to you belly rather than rapidly from your chest – like a distressed animal – helps.  But it is a practice.  One you must repeat.  Over and over again.  Fail and forgive.  Fail and forgive.  Fail and forgive.  Over and over again, until something in you begins to soften and yield. And slowly you begin to trust that living in a different way from a calm rooted place is safe. We are at our core animals that fear separation and pain and seek safety and connection.  We have to learn that the primary connection we so desperately seek is with ourselves – our deep wise ancient eternal selves – the spark that persists even beyond the grave.  That is the connection we most want. 

Because even if we cannot articulate it or understand why it matters we can still feel it. We know that there is something more than what we have in our lives that we desperately need and most often try to seek out fruitlessly in others. But if we find that connection, a conduit for truth and higher knowing opens up in us because we realize that we are a part of the deeper eternal whole.  We realize that we are all connected.  That sparks of this same divinity walk beside you, each one in their own human costume that we wear to this life.  You feel the energy, the aliveness of the natural world pulsing around you.  Calling your name. 

Calling you brother, sister, friend. 

All of the power and beauty of nature flows in our veins because we are also wild, sacred and free.  That is why nature is so powerful because it brings us home to ourselves, to the part of us that exists in all things.  That defies the order imposed on it by mortal man.  Quietly reminding us we can also choose to reject the primacy of the mind in favor of a faith in the wisdom of our bodies and our higher selves. 

We are also sovereign.  Also wildly powerful.  Also completely free.   

All these things are our birth right as children of the natural world.  We have simply forgotten.  Or perhaps more accurately, we have been conditioned to forget.  It is an act of will and even outright rebellion to remember and to stake your claim to yourself.  To own your energy – the only currency that really matters here.  To assert your connection to the eternal whole.  Therein lies your power.  In the beginning, it flickers in and out like a bulb about to burn up, but as we learn how to calm our nervous systems, to face our fears and slowly begin to trust ourselves it grows brighter and more consistent. 

A clear beacon.  Part universal truth.  Part sovereign self. 

And that is how you can find others also walking this path – by their vibration, by how they feel.  Science calls it resonance – the space where similar frequencies find and amplify each other.  I think that is what love is – the recognition of that innate sameness, the vibratory parity or equilibrium, the feeling that you are home – because in a way you are.  There is no resistance, no clash of opposing or incompatible energy. 

At your core the vibrations you carry resonate – meaning they move as one.

Freeing up energy and space in your life to grow.  Because resonance amplifies the innate qualities of being that each of you already hold making you stronger.  It is like your vibrational equal holds for you a reservoir, a reserve.  That is why love – real vibratory love – the feeling of seeing yourself in another – provides both safety and freedom.  It holds your truest self, but does not seek to bind or control you.  Energy stops moving when faced with fear.  Fearful we stagnate.  So love is a place that helps protect us from fear and from freezing, which gives us back to ourselves in those moments by holding that vibratory feeling of home for us.  It is a calm peaceful knowing that you are both clearly seen and gently carried.  I think that is why we can feel our match sometimes in people we have only just met because our energy knows theirs – quite literally the space in which our matter vibrates is the same and so we feel a call. 

A resonance.  Beyond words, logic and reason.  It simply is. 

My soul knows yours.  It is so nice to see you.  How I have missed you friend. 

There is an ache there on a soul level for that shared silence. 

But it is only something we can feel if we have done the work to move beyond what our senses alone can see.  It is as though we face a monumental glacial field of sky blue ice so vast and full of crevasses that our only hope to cross it safely is to release the conscious mind that will descend into fear and try to think our way out of the frozen canyons that will surely find us.  To put aside the fear that would have us freeze and fall and to instead trust that with momentum and a certain intuitive instinct we will be safely carried to the other side.  Safely carried by ourselves – our old wise eternal selves.  That is where true peace lies. And where the latent potential for all great things is hidden – all great love, all great art, all great innovation discovery and evolution — in plain sight of our intuition and subtle knowing.  Einstein opened up for us a world where energy is matter is energy.  It is in that fluid dance between them that everything in life exists.  Humming and buzzing and singing. Every single molecule, all fractals unfolding, each facet of frequency.

It is the energy in all things. The vibratory signature they emit.  That is the pure brilliance of existence.  It is the unseen world that rises up before us when we move beyond our senses into all that lies beneath.